Back on the Track

Thanks so much for all the great messages! (May I be bias over my sisters' ones.. haha.. P'Yai -- you made me smile eak laew ^^)

I'm back on the track. Not because things are resolved, but I have come to realize there is nothing else I can do instead of keep on moving. Get myself up on the ground and start walking again. That day was as if everything was a blur that I also didn't really know what happened. Nope, things aren't getting better yet. It's in fact more complicated than I originally thought. Worst case scenerio -- I absolutely thought of. Yet, I don't know how I'll handle it if that's what turning out for real. Just keeping my fingers crossed for it not to happen.

We all are determined to go through some tough situations to test ourselves. Some people's problems are lighter or more severe than others in our eyes. At that moment, I thought it was the worst thing to happen to me eversince I was born. But in fact, no, I had been through something worse than this. It has just been exactly 10 years from then that I suffered something that happened not as a consequence of what originated from my own doing. Usually if it is something involving my own wrong doing, I admit the problem, learn from my mistakes and solve for the better. These cases were just differences. However, I still believe that doesn't matter what happened, everything depends on how we perceive and take it. I now perceive it bad, but I'm taking it alright. Life must go on.

Among the bad, I have touched the good. It's not often in my life that I am explicitly being touched. If it's not because of everyone's love and care, it might have taken me longer to come back on my feet. Thank you so much everyone. I'm grateful to have come across all of you. How can you stand in a world of strangers if you don't have someone to love and care for and being loved and cared of? My words aren't enough to express how I feel. I'm glad I have you all here with me. ^^

And so it goes...